Child of mine, never given a chance
     What would you have been?
A boy? Daddy's lil' slugger?
     A girl? Daddy's lil' princess?
Never to know, always to guess.
Although you're gone, I love you no less.
     Child of mine what would you have been,
what would you have been, had you had
     the chance?

As far as what this is referring to I remember all too well;  December 18th, 1998.  As far as when it was written . . . well that's a different story.  I don't know that it was "ok" for me to show remorse for my actions at the time though looking back I would say that this was perhaps my 2nd greatest failure of my life.  I've grown and learned a great deal since then, I still remember though; not that it's a weight around my neck as I've found forgiveness long ago.  But many a life changing lessons I learned then.