Scripture~
Exodus 12, Psalm 31, Mark 10

     At this point I have only read Exodus 12; I am struck by something. The Passover Feast is a way of remembering what God did for the people of Israel in the land of Egypt. I have been . . . bugged is not the word but something odd happened today during communion. It was easier for my wife to get mine for me, I wanted to go, I wanted to partake; the worship service was . . . spirit filled to say the least. Truly amazing. I had unconfessed sin; sin that I had casually forgotten about but felt guilty enough about so as to when I would try to S.O.A.P. earlier this week I could not due to the conviction. It was almost as the reading of God’s Word was too bright to bear. During the worship service and leading into the communion I was once again convicted. I realized who I was and knowing my loving Father I confessed my sin. (NOTE: confessing sin is not telling God what you’ve done, He already knows; but instead it’s agreeing with Him that the deed or act committed or thought was sinful) About 15 seconds after my confession, my wife returned with the elements. I took it and placed it in my mount and . . . it was odd . . . in one sense you could say that I wanted to spit it out. It was almost, painful? This was a first for me. I honestly didn’t know what to think, it was almost as if I could feel the personal offense I had committed against Christ. Better put, maybe I was feeling the hurt I caused Him . . . I didn’t like it . . . but I’m thankful for it. To get a glimpse; . . . it’s almost impossible to describe.
     Now reading through the Psalm it is brought to my mind the presence of someone very dear to me. I love him so much . . . yet I am pained at times with what he suffers. So much of it is self-inflicted in that he doesn’t realize what he’s worth or who he is. He has been over-taken at times by enemies of light and truth. It is painful to watch this dear one go through this. You’re worth the world, you’re worth the death of God’s Son on the cross. This is what you’re worth oh dear one. Realize it, read Psalm 31 and find the goodness that your Creator, Lord, and King wishes to give to you. Believe, accept, and know the goodness of Christ’s Kingdom.
     Finishing the passage in Mark . . . I am reminded of our message this morning. Discussing what it means to be a Great Commission church in regards to our wealth. To not close our eyes to the needs of others . . . instead to run to those needs, and answer the cries.

     Blessed Father; today has been a great day of growth for your servant. Thank you for the lessons and closeness of today; You alone are worthy of praise Lord. Tasting the pain I caused . . . crying out for my dear one . . . Father I feel as though I’ve been given a glimpse into things that I want more of. Father I pray to grow more like my King, each and everyday.