After years of wondering what my issue was with vacations I think I've finally figured it out.  I think I identify myself with my work, now I'm not sure if that's an all together bad thing yet or not but it does make some questions that will need answers.  See at the office I know what I'm doing, I fit in a niche and while I'm not trying to be cocky I'm good at what I do.  
     But now on vacation, I try to focus on my other job, doing my part to run geekFoundry and my mind and heart are distracted.  I just don't feel like I fit in anywhere which again I should be thankful for I guess.  I've often been opposed to people automatically labeling you and making automatic assumptions based on a few context clues they may pick up based on what you drive, your dress, etc.  But now I think I'd be more comfortable if I could be classified and categorized.  I don't know why I feel so uncertain, I just do.
     Due to that uncertainty I am now stuck second guessing the decisions I've made and even who I am as a person.  Mind you my core is solid, it's the "extras" that fog my mind.  The small choices that had a big impact in the long run.  But, whats done is done.  On Monday I'll go back to the office where I'm comfortable and where I know who I am.  Just makes me wonder what will happen when the next vacation comes up or when I retire?