an unloving hand
no emotion burns behind the flesh
steel,
molded in heat
filled with springs and pins
a machine, an instrument
just as the pianists emotion filled hands
give life to the piano,
so does the dead hand
give chemical life to his instrument
metal, nitrate, salt peter,
a chemical heart beats with life
deep in the machines core
the coldness melds into one,
the finger pulls
a hammer falls,
the chemicals exhale,
a heartbeat stops,
the hand falls.
again I’m not sure where I was in my life when I wrote this. I’m certain it was during my dark years as I lost the need to write like this after I came out of them. Not that this is great or anything, but the subject matter is obvious. well, if I did it right it is. the unloving hand (the hand that falls at the end) is one that has grown numb and feels nothing. the steel instrument is a gun and it’s chemical heartbeat is the gunpowder \ bullet that beats in the chamber. the coldness melding into one is picturing a cold emotionless hand picking up a cold emotionless instrument. the rest should be self explanatory.